Who and what are you?
Maybe you have asked yourself this question already. The more you advance in your spiritual development, the more you have to find a fitting answer.
The main problem is that we identify with what we see in the mirror, with our physical appearance, and then with our experiences, characteristics, likes and dislikes, etc. This identification is quite temporary and in a change process. From one moment to the next we can become a different person.
A main factor is that we are a composition of all the personalities we embodied in the various incarnations. Some might be of dominance or might be more important than others. However, in sum they all have an impact on your present life with all needs, desires, preferences, fears, etc. Some characteristics are good and useful while others limit you, cause problems and pains.
However, – in the end you discover that your original nature is universal, that you can create, strengthen and integrate divine virtues in yourself on a universal standard and that you can take roles like an actor. You can see yourself as a universal actor who can realize perfection and who can play any kind of role.
Besides all the universal aspects, you have an individual history and with this, also individual characteristics. You embody both poles, the universal-divine pole and the individual-human pole. This is fascinating and one of nature´s paradoxes.
Besides all these ideas, the main point simply is that it is a trap to say “Okay, that´s me, with all my flaws, my bad behavior, my shortcomings. I must accept my limitations.” And the second trap is “Okay, I am this or that personality. I cannot be different.” Unfortunately, these are typical mistakes of humans in general and students on the path in the lower steps.
We are not limited by nature. Not limited by flaws. And not limited by our personal strengths. Our true nature is unlimited. And when we understand that we can go beyond our limitations and that we can integrate new qualities, then these has great effects on life, on happiness and on success.
Important to understand is also that not only our flaws and mistakes have limiting effects, but that also our strengths limit us.
“Once a warrior, always a warrior.”
“Once a monk, always a monk.”
“Once a scholar, always a scholar.”
This is simply unhealthy and blocks so many wonderful opportunities to behave in different ways and to open yourself to new experiences.
Each incarnation offers you new experiences (as you forget about who you have been in the former incarnation). But it is obviously hard for people to go beyond the old personality and to walk new paths in life.
Certainly, there are reasons. But especially when you walk the path of initiation, you need to become aware of these things and you must ask yourself if your present personality is good and useful in all aspects or if you can and want change things.
“Be your Self, create yourself!”
It might be useful to understand yourself as this universal being which has made a lot of individual experiences to create in sum the personality you experience today.
So, check yourself, do introspection, question all aspects of yourself and change what is useful to change. Become well-balanced in the end and refine yourself.
Regarding Bardon, – you must become a perfect human, before you can become an individual deity and then a universal deity.
All human ideas of being a god or goddess with human characteristics are just phantasy, nice and good for entertainment and maybe for parties. Real deities are divine in nature, not human.